NEW YORK, NY - AUGUST 23: Zayn Malik of One Direction performs on NBC's "Today" at Rockefeller Center on August 23, 2013 in N
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March 2015 might go down as the hardest month in the lives of One Direction fans. Last week, brooding bad boy Zayn Malik announced that he would leave the group's 2015 world tour, On the Road Again, due to "stress." A few days later, he revealed his complete complete departure from the world's biggest boy band.

Today, English radio personality Dan Wootton has shared the first interview with the British babe since his leave. "I'm feeling quite interesting," Zayn tells the host. "It's crazy and wild and a bit mad, but at the same time I've never felt more in control, like I'm doing what's right by myself and right by the boys. I'm feeling good."

Malik's game plan goes as follows: 

"To be myself. I think I'm just going to write and relax and chill. My main message is that I did try to do something that I wasn't happy doing for a while for the sake of maybe other people's happiness and that was mainly the fans. I only ever tried to do it for the fans. It was only ever for them. Basically I'm only upset because I think I might have let them down in some sort of way. That's the main thing that I don't want to happen. It's not that I turned my back on them or anything. I just can't do that anymore. It's not real to me."

Hear the full interview here and read the rest of the band's reactions to Zayn's departure here.