Creed’s Scott Stapp has struggled with depression, substance abuse, and suicide attempts in his two decades in the public eye. Today the 41-year-old singer reveals to People that he has been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, is in recovery, and feels “lucky to be alive.”
"I had a psychotic break that was brought on by alcohol and drug abuse. I was hallucinating. I drove around the United States for a month, following an angel that I saw on the hood of my car. In my delusional thinking, I thought my family was involved in ISIS, and that millions of dollars had been taken from me to support terrorism. All of it was nonsense. I was out of my mind."
In 2013, Stapp spoke to Fuse about “Slow Suicide,” the single from his solo album Proof of Life, and its autobiographical origins:
“I had to call it for what it was and what I was doing to myself: slowly killing myself and not dealing with things in my life appropriately. … I was living my life headed straight for the grave. I should’ve been in that grave. This is all part of my journey to recovery.”
Now Stapp says his sobriety is his top priority; he’s in a 12-step program, has a sponsor, and is taking medication. “It’s not a curse,” he says of his bipolar disorder. “It’s actually been a gift in my life, because it’s definitely impacted everything that I’ve ever done as an artist.”
Below, see a clip of People’s candid conversation with Stapp and his wife of nine years, Jaclyn, with whom he has two young children. Jaclyn filed for divorce six months ago; the two have since reconciled and are moving forward as a couple.