Lately Alternative Press has been hosting a Musicians Institute Conversations series where Senior Editor Ryan J. Downey sits down with a star from the scene (usually folks who've graced the cover of the pop-punk magazine) and hosts a Q&A. In the latest installment, Panic! at the Disco frontman/last original remaining member Brendon Urie fields a question from the audience about his ADHD, a certain mental difference he's been living with since childhood:
"From the time I was in school until I was about 13, teachers didn't know what was wrong with me. About every week teachers would call in my mom, who is the sweetest person in the world and always backed me. They would call her in and be like, 'How much sugar do you give your child? We can't contain him. He is rambunctious. His behavior is insubordinate. He's terrible. He's making everyone laugh while I'm trying to teach them.'"
"My mom takes me to a child psychologist and I'm bouncing around the room...the guy leaves the room for twenty minutes and comes back and says, 'You have a very strong case of ADHD.' I'm like, 'Cool, what's that?' They put me on medication and I took that for about a year. It freaked me out. I didn't like who I'd become. It's not like this for everybody but for me it was like, 'I'm inside this body and I'm watching myself behave a certain way and there's nothing I can do about it.' It was terrifying. It scared the shit out of me...I took them again for like six months when the band started getting a lot bigger, started touring. I remember being in the hotel, taking all the pills, I had 60-count of each and thinking, 'I'm done. I can't do it. I would rather be myself and cope with this than just numb this.' It took a while for me to understand that. It definitely effects everything I do. It's not like it's a detriment to anything I do by any means. Everyone has moments where they bounce around and multitask."