March 16, 2017


Selena Gomez On Rehab & Quitting Her Tour: 'I Can't Wait For People to Forget About Me'

Mert Alas and Marcus Piggott for VOGUE
Mert Alas and Marcus Piggott for VOGUE

Selena Gomez landed her first Vogue cover for the magazine's April issue. While the photo shoot shows how gorgeous the pop star is, it's the interview inside that shows just how candid she has become. The singer opens up about the reason why she ended her Revival World Tour and went to rehab.

“Tours are a really lonely place for me. My self-esteem was shot. I was depressed, anxious," Gomez explains. "I started to have panic attacks right before getting onstage, or right after leaving the stage. Basically I felt I wasn’t good enough, wasn’t capable." She continues,

"I felt I wasn’t giving my fans anything, and they could see it—which, I think, was a complete distortion. I was so used to performing for kids. At concerts I used to make the entire crowd raise up their pinkies and make a pinky promise never to allow anybody to make them feel that they weren’t good enough. Suddenly I have kids smoking and drinking at my shows, people in their 20s, 30s, and I’m looking into their eyes, and I don’t know what to say. I couldn’t say, ‘Everybody, let’s pinky-promise that you’re beautiful!’ It doesn’t work that way, and I know it because I’m dealing with the same shit they’re dealing with."

Gomez announced her break from the industry last August due to lupus-related anxiety and depression. The singer tells Vogue how refreshing it was to be in rehab for 90 days without the torments of Instagram, which she took a break from. “You have no idea how incredible it felt to just be with six girls,” she reveals, “real people who couldn’t give two shits about who I was, who were fighting for their lives. It was one of the hardest things I’ve done, but it was the best thing I’ve done.”

The "It Ain't Me" singer then appeared at the 2016 AMAs, where she gave a touching speech about taking care of one's mental health:

"I had to stop because I had everything and I was absolutely broken inside. I kept it all together enough to where I would never let you down but I kept it too much together to where I let myself down. I don’t want to see your bodies on Instagram. I want to see what’s in here [holds chest]. I’m not trying to get validation nor do I need it anymore. All I can say from the bottom of my heart is I am so grateful that I have the opportunity to be able to share what I love every single day with people that I love."

Click here to read Selena Gomez's Vogue interview in full, where she speaks about shedding her child star image, pressures of social media and the benefits of therapy. Below, watch an old-school Fuse interview with the singer about being a role model: